With that, we decided to create another gathering and surprisingly.. a girl caught my eye and it was just a classmate who've changed for that one year. She changed, both personality and styling. That day was literally felt the longest day, yet it's something to cherish on. Thus, we began to contact each other, but not for long.. we got together.

I'm telling you, it was fun everyday, not a moment of feeling down, till one day she started to avoid having conversation with me or even get closer to me, not for long.. the day came and I feel like I'm in calamity.

At the age of sixteen, three years has passed, graduated and working independently till college, she confessed to her feelings, but I rejected her due to my selfishness and anger. And I was still with someone rather than her on that time. A year has passed, broke up and walking aimlessly nothing in life. 

2014, age of 19, from the day I laid my eyes on her till now, it still doesn't rust but keeps shining still. How I wish I could make the right decision, or just maybe.. make a decision to have a perfect world for me.

2015, current year, I came to a decision where I've been waiting 'nothing' but receiving deep wounds. Maybe it's time to say to yourself.. "It's time to smile for tomorrow, cause yesterday was harsh for you, today is just your reflections". Wish I could have amnesia and forget who you are.. maybe that will really make me move on or just muster up my courage to throw the years of waiting to the pit. 

I sure wish, I could at least embrace you for the first and final time. Time to cut the chains Faris, you're just making it worst for yourself. Go on, go find someone who thinks you're perfect for her. Go search the person who can cure the pain you've been having for seven years.. you can finally stop screaming inside, tearing yourself and crying till you fall apart. Now smile, you deserve a better one.

Regards, the one who trying to save the future you.